-jus me-

Wells.. i would like to invite yoy all to my new blogs..

haha.. yesh 2 BLOGS.. Hahaha… one is mine alone and the other is a shared one..

ohhkies… mine’s ; www.thousandhugsandkisses.blogspot.com

the shared blog is by Me, Nurul, Hajar, Hidayah, Meiling..

and it is… www.blackdiamondqueens.blogspot.com …

sooo i wont be posting here anymore so to say… ciaoz…

tag me when you visit.. =)

gosh. work was really awesomely tiring. haha. wells, it’s really enjoyable. it takes my mind off a lot of things. really. haiz. but no matter, there are things that i cannot run away from. gosh. anyway, it was freaking packed and busy today and im soo tired but i just cant sleep so here i am typing away. part of me just hate staying up too late and all but i cant help it. i really seem to be attached to this kind of sleeping hours. yesterday i hit the bed around 4am… i think im really getting insomnia. haiz. slowly changing my lifestyle. and soon my sleeping hours… haha. but i be working till april when school life starts again. but i shall see how my schedule will be at that time. cos the first semester wont really be that cramped i guess. haha. hmms. so anyways, so far life’s been fine. still surviving. cant wait fer next friday! payday! haha.

oryty my dearies…

-muahs-

p.s. im starting to realise something. ahhah. =) ( btw, happy bdae nurul.LOve ya)

wells, i know of couples who still love each other but they cant be together. for one it’s because they are with another person. two, they just plainly cant seem to get themselves together due to time problem. three, they are trying to resist it. four, they are so afraid to try again. five, they are lying to themselves that they dont love each other. and obviously there are so many more.. but one of which that i really know of is they both hate each other’s guts and attitude (a love-hate r’ship) - pride and ego just becomes the barrier so too bad they cant be together. and another is when the girl LIES that she dont love the guy anymore and continues being with her new guy cos she’s afraid to break his heart. wells, yeahs…

anyways… im cutting the crap now… read on this poem then…

We know it well deep inside,

When we look into each other’s eyes.

Deny should we it still remain strong,

It’s still unshaken by whatever storm.

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Skin to skin and we’re open again,

Receptive to our notions.

That of which reveals our desire,

For nothing else but love as we expire.

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Your breath on me, my breath on you,

I cant say more you know it’s true.

Your senses perceive mine well,

The love we share we’ll never sell.

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Hands to hands secure as ever,

You’re always there thru whatever.

Should things fall apart I never fear,

Because we know we’ll be back at will.

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Heat to heat brings passion to love,

Ignited by our touch, a mystery solve.

We cant run away from one another,

The only way now is to love each another.

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haha… ‘those’ person reading this, if you feel a pinch there.. haha. wells, get your butt moving and get on with that person. or at least let them know how you feel…! and to you! as you read this i know you’re only thinking of that one guy! haha..

p.s. someday we’ll know is a good song! haha..:)

goodness i tell you… my cousin is one of the worst boyfriend to his girlfriend! think of it, he never contacted her for a week or so. not even letting her know what the hell happen to him, what he is up to, whether or not they are over or not. but thankz to me, haha. they are finally back! haha. officially=) feels so good to bring back a couple. haha. wells, my cousin still loves his girl and all. he told me, "i love her, i miss her. but i also hate her. the stories i hear about her flirting with other guys." it was days back that he was telling me of her but it never took it’s toll on him till last night only. haha. there was once i asked him why he never contact her. dont he miss her at all or something. then he told me flatly that yeash he do miss her a lot. but he’s afraid to let her know. haha. guys guys. what the hell.. oh wells, it’s okie now. he’s happy now, she’s happy now. but tonight he gets a bit uncertain again cos of the way she talked to her other guy frens. haha. haiz. oh wells, i wish him well in his rollercoaster ride. hah.

anyways, addition to that he got drunk! as in really drunk! haha! i took him back home. and gosh.. he did make sucha havoc. that’s why i said to myself, i’ll never get myself drunk to the extent anymore, so as not to burden anyone. haha. i know i did that before and upon knowing how much burden it cost a person to look out a drunk one, i really think it’s soo not a good idea. at least not anymore. man, im old already! haha. lol

anyways, work is getting interesting as much! haha.

gtg hit the bed soon!

-muahs-

man. i really dont know what’s up with me but gosh.. the spark b/w me and a certain someone is freaking gone. haha. it was just a two days spark. haha.. apparently it didnt ignite a flame. haha.. chemistry was there but apparently it isnt explosive enough. he’s a nice guy but i guess it just what i call- im not interested. damn my short attention span. aiyo!

aniwaes, lets move from that. im now on my boat, moving to another place to have more choices on the fish to catch. haha. it the fish is colouful enough then i’ll jump in but if it aint, then im up on my boat.. sailing to that particular island which i dont know when i’ll arrive. haha. to those who get what i mean- good fer you! haha

wells, i got to go get ready. im late..! hahah..

"i wanna hold you till the fear in me subside …" part of the song that i love so, Sometimes When We Touch. hmms. Im just home by the computer without any other things to do apart from writing in this blog. wells, i had to take a day off today cos my dad had to take a double shift. i hope they’ll manage without me at the cafe today. In two days straight we had FullHouse man! haha. Although it is really tiring but the thought of the income coming in just motivates me more. never in my entire life have i really experience working for my very own money. it is fun to an extent but when im beaten and really tired, i would just want to surrender. i just wish that i have someone with me to actually motivate me more. haha. it is good to have someone with you, believing that yes, you can do it. i know i have HIM by my side always, and i really am grateful that he never leave me.

But it is still different having someone special there yeah? haha. it is good to have many of ‘them’..  i can choose who i want to go out with and all but somehow it gets tiring. im the type who sticks to one. so far after the dude, i havent really have someone else to be with. not that i need one now. i dont really in fact. i dont want to be attached now. at least not now. i wont have the time. i dont even have the time for myself anymore and so having a serious relationship would just mean that i may neglect my other half. i dont like that. so yeahs. and it’s been long since ive been really faithful. haha.

i wont deny that i do think of the dude still and i really do miss our times together. but i guess it’s past now. i know i wont forget him.that’s for sure… he wouldnt want that. and i wouldnt want that either. yup.. im just grateful that HE gave me the person i need when i need him the most. =))  i just wish him good health and good life. yeaps. =))

love,

muahs

i never thought that id share any nice moments with someone else apart from the dude. apparently, the dude and i are really gone. we’re not even seeing each other any longer, let alone have any conversation apart from one night which he called. that call was also because he had to get something from me and nothing more. not even a ‘hey, how’d you been?’ oh wells, i cant expect anything from him anyway. even if we had conversations about some stuff, i already chose to just keep away. no point in staying if he himself cant get it straight to that particular friend what i am to him. but what can u expect from a guy like him anyway…? it’s fine though. im still surviving here.. haha.

wells, ive started working at my aunt’s cafe at vivo city (2hot halal cafe, do come and dine with us. the chef’s great! =) ) Dec1 was my first real day. haha. my cousins work there too and mostly our friends work with us too. gosh, im like the only girl there. there is another one, Vicky but she’s not a girl. haha. what i mean is she’s married with a kid. haha. anyway, i did hosting cum waitress yesterday. and we had FULL HOUSE! haha. which is really cool because we only had limited items on the menu due to some technical problems in the kitchen.

so far so great. wells, after  work, my friend picked me up and we went to east coast park. haha. it was something that i’d really remember because it was my first time wading at sea at night! haaha.. and it really was something to remember that i never thought id spend with someone else apart from the dude. hahz. wells it was really fun! haha.. and wells, i have to say, i guess i’d have to open up. if it’s suppose to happen, i wont resist it. my fren’s really nice. i can talk to him about anything. he’d ask me about me, my work, my day. haha. the funny thing is, he’d been around but i never thought that we can share those kind of moments yesterday. haha. wells, lets not get into that detail yar. haha. privacy. hees.

but those who really wanna noe ( my darling frens? ) haha we’re still just friends.. if the sparks ignite a flame then it just means it’s time… =)) he’s nice.. so far.. haha.

toodles,

muahs

this is not a poem written by me. it’s a poem by Kartik- a wonderful bro who cant seem to keep the girl who he love truly.

this is something that i feel is really very meaningful.i share it with all you readers to let you know how much he actually regretted losing that one girl who gave him whatever she could. now, she wont even see him. he’s full of frustration but he know he cant change it. this poem signifies that feeling he possess. (Kartik, you’re a good guy.but in life you gotta understand the true meaning of appreciating the love that you are given. this is something that i can learn from- ’cause like you, i never really appreciated i had. and like HER, i was underappreciated. love ya bro..)<BR>

tittle: FIRST LOVE

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Baby now that you’re gone,

I want you to know that im all alone;

Into the lake, im throwing stone,

Finding a cure to this monotone.

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Flashes of us still haunts my mind,

This lasting memories sends chills down my spine;

I feel ive something to find,

Baby come on you know you’re mine.

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Without you I’m incomplete,

And everything is so hard;

I cannot pick up the pieces,

Im missing one specific shard.

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An empty space lies in my heart,

Where you are meant to be,

Whatever happens to ‘ALWAYS,

TOGETHER, YOU AND ME?’

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Feeling afraid,cold and lonely,

I long to tell you how i feel;

But you arent there to hear me,

The pain for me is much too real.

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Should I back away and build a wall,

And block away how i fall?

Cos the hardest thing to forget,

Is first love and that’s you…

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-written by KARTIK KRISH( to the girl he loved dearly.. his first real love )

well, i thought i’d wake up early to go to blk 4 for some party planning. but it got cancelled cos i found out that my parents would be working and my poor sister will home alone. so i had no choice but to just stay home till she go to sch. i went to blk 4 eventually but to find that there aint anybody to plan with. daryl didnt leave the chalet money too. oh wells, anyway ryan changed his mind abt doing a chalet. so yeahs, i guess im not gona need to plan anything for ryan. lata on in the aft, nurul came over to my place for some study session… somehow…but the study session led to revelations.. haha.. (SA) hahhaa.. wells, nurul and i we’re freaking shocked. haha..

at night, i went out with wan and hafiz, ryan came along too.. hafiz rented a car so yeahs, we went around… hahah.. the speed was cool and the ‘drift’… ahhaha… anyway, we went to wan’s bro’s bbq pit party. it wasnt much of a party really. more to a gathering.. later on we went to play pool at downtown east. after which, we played daytona.. hahah.. it was a fun friday night. and a good short break from studying.. ermz

plan goes…

+missing u somehow+

-mary-